Monday, September 26, 2011

"Mallard Duck and Raymond Carver" by A. Monaghan



You are a well fed, bold and barking Mallard duck,
and you approach at an alarming speed.
I give you bread, I give you banana,
and that's all I have to offer.
You gobble up the bread,
and hesitantly eat the banana from my hand,
lightly nipping my finger, snapping your beak for more.
That is all I have to give you Mallard,
so, I read to you from a book of poetry by Raymond Carver.
You "quack quack" and turn away.
"Harsh critic", I say, as you waddle to the next customer.
Poetry will never feed a duck.
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Sunday, September 25, 2011

"Hey Jude" The Beatles on The David Frost Show

They were the best, they still are the best and always will be the best. The Beatles on The David Frost show in 1968. David's a bit lost as John chants David Frost at him while the rest of the boys generally do what they like. This footage is priceless, the song itself, the crowd singalong, Paul's vocals, Ringo's lime green suit, George's Fender 6, the old guy in the uniform and the girl in the white dress standing beside Paul, the eye contact between John and Paul and John's obvious enthusiasm as he sings a strums along...timeless and utterly joyous.


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Friday, September 23, 2011

"The Big Three"



Pablo Picasso.
"I am art".

Jackson Pollock.
"It doesn't make much difference how the paint is put on as long as something has been said. Technique is just a means of arriving at a statement"

Andy Warhol.
"Don't think about making art, just get it done. Let everyone else decide wether it's good or bad, whether they love it or hate it and while they're deciding, make even more art"

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Wednesday, September 21, 2011

"4:01 AM" by A. Monaghan


It's 4:01 AM
I'm wide awake, it's the rats in the attic.
I curse, take a piss, dress,
and step outside.
It's a clear moonlit night.
I'm bent out of shape.
I want to wake the whole
Goddamn sleeping world,
so I walk.

The cold air on my face.
The first blackbirds.
A large ginger and white cat,
on the gleaming wet street.
He stops and sprays ,
looks at me, and walks of.

The cigarette tastes good
and walking calms my jangled nerves.
The outline of a cabbage tree against
the darkness of the sky.
I stop and breath the beginning of dawn.

I feel foolish living this life,
and walk home.
I rub my face hard,
and smell the smoke on my fingers.
I drink some tea
and wait for the day to come up.
It's 4:30 AM
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Tuesday, September 20, 2011

"Global Haywire" The Movie by Bruce Petty

Basically the story of how European colonialism fucked the world and got us in the state we're in today politically, financially and sociologically.

Told using brilliantly simple animation a rye sense of absurd, surreal humour and narrated by Tom Baker. If you watch one film this week, make it "Global Haywire".

Written, directed and animated by Bruce Petty, Global Haywire goes a long way to make sense of a senseless and insane world. Rent it, buy it, steal it, download it...do whatever, but watch it.

You think you know about this place called Earth? Think again. Five stars.

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"She Moved Through The Fair" Instrumental

Original instrumental arrangement of the traditional folk song "She Moved Through The Fair". Dropped D tuning. Influenced in part by Davy Graham's version, and although it's nothing like his version, his gave me the idea to do an instrumental arrangement.


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Sunday, September 18, 2011

"Blue Heaven" by A.Monaghan

Sparks of blue heaven
release seas of tranquility.

The sense memory of childhood,
blooms to an overwhelming innocence.

It carries me on the shoulders
of a huge and calm, rolling wave.

The Nazz - "Open My Eyes"

Pop psych freakout from The Nazz, featuring a very young Todd Rundgren on magnificent form, playing a beautiful "Gibson Flying V". Featured on "The Nazz" and the first Nuggett's L.P. You have to go to YouTube to watch it for copyright reasons...


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Friday, September 16, 2011

Joni Mitchell In Concert 1970

Joni Mitchell on the "BBC In Concert" programme in 1970 at the peak of her singer songwriter period. Her voice is perfection and her playing is effortless and peerless, showcasing her unique guitar style and piano playing. She even plays a dulcimer on the song "California". Is there anything Joni can't do?

The show was recorded on the 9th March 1970 and aired on 10 September of the same year. The In Concert series also featured performances by most of the singer song writers of the day including, Neil Young, James Taylor, Carole King, Cat Stevens and Elton John.






















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Thursday, September 15, 2011

"We Fall Into Love and We Fall Out Of Love" by A. Monaghan


In moments...
I remember falling in love.
Watching you walk across a room
from a distance for the first time.
Seeing you in shadow, outlined by the sun,
a hand on your hip,
a dark blue strap,
slipping from your pale shoulder.
Watching you swim and
kissing your dark wet hair.
In moments...
I remember loving you.
Holidays, laughter, reading books out loud together,
wedding rings, markets, moving houses, adopting a cat,
buying a bed...the bed where we made love and babies.
Holding your head in the pains off labour,
with a child, our child!
Watching that new life
spilling from your heavy body.
In moments...
I remember love losing it's way
in uncertainty, confusion and dread.
You still look so young, I feel so old and we fade.
Shared photos become pictures off strangers,
and we wake and find nothing between us,
no love, no laughter, no more life.
A love, once clear becomes blurred and glassy.
Silence replaces words, we become two
different things, and in the end,
it's not the loss that is hardest to bear,
but the slow creep off change,
that gradually tears the heart into a million shreds.
The night arrives, the last night at home,
and then the first night alone,
then nothing.
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"The Family Goat" by A. Monaghan















“I step across the little brook to feed the family goat,
And, am grateful this small waterway, does not require a boat.

I often sit and contemplate him standing in his field,
And marvel at the produce that this little goat can yield.

He must be very happy in his little bit of pasture,
For, the milk & cheese he has offered up, is twice as much as last year.”

Written in tribute to and in the the style off William McConagall.

*William Topaz McGonagall (10 March 1825 – 29 September 1902)
Scottish weaver and amateur poet and actor. He won notoriety as a singularly bad poet who exhibited no recognition or concern of his peers’ opinions of his work. He wrote some 200 poems, including the infamous “Tay Bridge Disaster”, which are widely regarded as some of the worst in British history. His influence has been sighted by Spike Milligan, Peter Sellers and Billy Connolly, among others.
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Monday, September 12, 2011

"Clean Up This God Damn Room Already". by A.M. Monaghan

An earplug

Tissues

Crumbs (toast)

Sleeping Pills

Paper

A crack pipe

Clock radio

Empty wine bottles

Pain killers

Red numbers

Posters

A reading lamp (that reminds me of you)

A bed too big

Striped pajamas

Odd socks

Tortured sheets

Blood

Hot pillows

A dark blue blanket

Yellow fly swat

Heat

Chipped tea cup

Chocolate wrappers

A French water glass

Dust

Two novels

A notebook

Cobwebs

Head noises

Pens

A roach

Blue cigarette lighter

Notes

Skin

Newspaper clippings

Scissors

Glue

Ash

Tears

Is it any wonder I can't sleep with all this noise going on around me!

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Sunday, September 11, 2011

"Nobody But You" by Charles Bukowski

nobody can save you but
 yourself.

you will be put ag
ain and again
into nearly impossible
 situations.

they will attempt again and again

through subterfuge, guise and

force
to make you submit, quit and /or die quietly
inside.


nobody can save you but

yourself

and it will be easy enough to fail
so very easily
but don’t, don’t, don’t.
just watch them.

listen to them.
do you want to be like that?

a faceless, mindless, heartless

being?


do you want to experience

death before death?


nobody can save you but

yourself

and you’re worth saving.
it’s a war not easily won
but if anything is worth winning then
this is it.


think about it.
think about saving your self.

your spiritual self.

your gut self.

your singing magical self and

your beautiful self.

save it.

don’t join the dead-in-spirit.


maintain your self

with humor and grace

and finally

if necessary

wager your self as you struggle,

damn the odds, damn

the price.


only you can save your
self.

do it! do it!

then you’ll know exactly what
I am talking about.














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September 11th/12th 2001

If my calculations and the time difference is right, the attacks on The World Trade Centre that occurred on September 11th 2001 actually occurred on 12th September in my part of the world, Wellington, New Zealand.

I remember my wife at the time waking me up with the radio playing, to say something about a plane crashing into The World Trade Centre in New York. The news had little effect on me. I was waking up to another day as a nurse aide at Wellington hospital, general ward 14.

As we didn't have a television, we weren't privy to the visceral images of the planes plunging into the buildings against that clear blue sky the buildings collapsing or the ghostly looking people coated in fine dust or the plumes of wreckage pouring down the New York streets and avenues, so the news that came over the radio was tame compared to what was being witnessed all around the globe.

I was on an early shift, 8AM to 3.30PM. I got up, showered, ate breakfast and went to work. Once there it was straight into the never ending list of things to be done. As per usual there were nurses busy changing shift, meetings, briefings, patient reports, laundry, new admissions, releases, beds to be stripped and made, breakfast to hand out, tea and coffee to be made, shit to clean up.

Slowly the news would filter through in snippets. What started as an occasional remark built, as the day progressed and more and more became thee topic of the day. Still, it had little effect on me, I barely gave it a second thought, something else bad was happening in another part of the world, I had work to do, always too much work to do.

My lasting memories of the talk during that normal working day are two separate statements made by people who had seen the news footage and were following the updates on the television situated in the visitor room. I remember an English nurse describing it as "a work of art" which left me bemused, and a patient saying that "They (presumably the American people) had it coming".

I finished work, tired as usual, but by now the talk was off little else. Thousands dead, buildings collapsing, the Pentagon bombed, America under attack from the air, all kinds of rumour and speculation. I signed my time sheet and left work, not once thinking about the fact that I had spent the day on the top floor of the highest building in Wellington Hospital.

When I got home, my wife asked me if I had heard any more news and I probably said something along the lines of yes, but thinking no. I imagine we talked about it. I hadn't seen any footage so it's impact on me was lessened than that of the millions watching from around the globe.

I tuned into The World Service and the talk was off what had unfolded. I was shocked to discover that yes, it had been an deliberate terrorist attack, and that another hijacked plane had crashed in a field and that the bombing off The Pentagon was in fact yet another hijacked plane, but soon I grew weary of the barrage of opinion and rhetoric, and turned the radio off, turned on some music, ate, read and went to sleep without thinking much more about it. That was September 12th. 2001, Wellington, New Zealand.

I had been in New York only two years earlier. Had seen the 'twin towers' from all angles, but they had left no lasting impression on me, unlike say, the Brooklyn Bridge, the Chrysler building, the Guggenheim or the Dakota Buildings where John Lennon had been murdered...no, the twin towers didn't really fit with my overall memory of that great city, not until much later. Not in fact until I saw the space left from where they once stood, the void remaining. It was the lack of them that made more of an impression than the buildings themselves.

The next day I bought a paper, a "commemorative" issue of The Wellington Post, and I thought about other commemoratives, and I imagine these things came to mind...the 1977 Queen's Silver Jubilee, the Northern Ireland hunger strikers, the first space shuttle blast off, the storming of the Iranian Embassy in London, the Hillsborough disaster, the Enniskillen remembrance Sunday bombing. On reading, the enormity of what had occurred on that day started to sink in. "Would the world ever be the same again"? "New York's Pearl Harbour", the headlines read.

Some time later I found a tourist map of Manhattan, a keep sake from my time in New York, and there on the cover, shot from an amateurish angle were those huge towers. Looking at a photograph of me and my wife taken on the Brooklyn bridge, there they were again. A shot from the Staten Island ferry and they're dead centre. In movies and documentaries with scenes shot in New York, they always featuerd.

I've watched only two related documentaries since that time. Jules Naudet's film "9/11", shot by him and his brother who by chance, happened to be making a documentary at the time about a New York Firehouse...what ogreish serendipity. The other was a poetic film by Henry Singer and Richard Numeroff called "The Falling Man" about the identity of a man who jumped or fell from one of the towers, caught in a series off still images by Associated Press photographer Richard Drew. That for me was enough. I have no need to see any associated images or footage again. They are seared into my memory.

What happened in the aftermath is history. The invasion of Iraq, the overthrow and demise of Saddam Hussein, the bombing and invasion of Afghanistan and of course most recently the killing of the man widely blamed as the mastermind and financial backer of the attacks ten years ago, Osama Bin Laden.

But that's not what this is about. September 11th. 2001 will forever be a, "where were you when you heard" day, this is simply my memory and my experience of that day. Run of the mill, unremarkable, mundane, tiring, work a day, ordinary and safe, in my own part off the world and my own place in the world.
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Saturday, September 10, 2011

"The First Time That Ever I Saw Your Face"

Instrumental version of the famous Ewan Maccoll tune, father of the English folk revival, during the 1960's. The song was adapted by Bert Jansch. My guitar is tuned to DADGAD. Played on a nylon string acoustic for a softer feel and sound. While Bert's reinterpretation strays from the original tune, it's a fitting tribute. My version is more or less a copy of Bert's.


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Friday, September 9, 2011

"Untitled" by A.M. Monaghan

















What a life this is,
what a dream,
what an awakening,
what tears of joy,
what laughter.

From our first breathe to our last,
man, woman and child.
And with what pain, anger and beauty
we enter this world, dumb, innocent and blameless,
no reason, but to be.

How similar we are, and how different,
together and alone we live
and with great sadness we die,
all our expectations turned to the wind
and to dust,
and to time,
and to eternity.
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Sunday, September 4, 2011

Saturday, September 3, 2011

John Fante – American Author

From "Ask the Dust" by John Fante
"The good days, the fat days, page upon page of manuscript; prosperous days, something to say...and the pages mounted up. Fabulous days, the rent paid, still fifty dollars in my wallet, nothing to do all day and night but write and think of writing: ah such sweet days, to see it grow, to worry for it, myself, my book, my words, maybe important, maybe timeless, but mine nevertheless, the indomitable Arturo Bandini, already deep into his first novel.
So an evening comes and what to do with it, my soul so cool from the bath of words, my feet so solid upon the Earth, and what are the others doing, the rest of the people of the world?
"

John Fante was born in Denver, Colorado in 1909. He attended various Catholic schools in and around Boulder Colorado, before enrolling at the University of Colorado. He dropped out of college and moved to Southern California to focus on his writing. He began writing in 1929 and published his first short story, "Altar Boy" in 1932, in the literary magazine, The American Mercury.

His first novel "Wait Until Spring" was published in 1938, and was to become the first in his  Arturo Bandini series of novels, the others being, "The Road to Los Angeles",  "AskThe Dust" and "Dreams From Bunker Hill".

Arturo Bandini served as Fante's alter ego, his novels being largely biographical and made up of his own life experiences. The main themes in Fante's work are poverty, love, the common man, everyday life and it's trials, Catholicism, family life, American identity, sports, and the writing life itself.

His most famous novel by far is "Ask The Dust" (originally titled "Ask The Dust on The Road"). It has been described as a virtuoso performance by an influential master of the twentieth – century American Novel. It tells the story of a young struggling author, living in Bunker Hill, Los Angeles and his doomed love for Mexican waitress Camilla Lopez. As he tirelessly works his trade, skirting poverty, his writing career starts to take off with the publication of a number of short stories and finally his first novel. Eventually Camilla has a nervous breakdown and disappears into the Mojave desert after pursuing her true love, ex waiter Sam. In the end Bandini loses Camilla and rejects the writers life he had fought so hard to attain.

Fante's writing has been described as having a clear voice, vivid characters, shoot-from-the-hip style, and painful, emotional honesty blended with humor and scrupulous self-criticism.

Fante was diagnosed with diabetes in 1955 eventually leading to blindness in 1978 and the amputation of both legs within the next two years. He continued to write however, dictating his work to his wife Joyce, publishing his final novel "Dreams From Bunker Hill" in 1982. He died on May 8, 1983, at the age of seventy four.

Fante's literary admirers included Charles Bukowski who was quoted as saying "Fante was my God", and openly admitted borrowing Fante's style and voice for his own writing style. The two writers became friends shortly before Fante's death. Bukowski went on to write the poem "Fante" in honour of his literary hero.

John Fante 1909 – 1983



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